Watching and Wanting by Jay Northcote
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
Jeeze Jay this book is hot. Probably the sexiest so far in the Housemates series but still packed with all the world building and character development I’d expect in a story from this author.
There’s loads of tension and sexual exploration as Shawn, confused and conflicted after breaking up with his girlfriend, discovers that new housemate Jude is running a webcam show twice a week to help fund his university costs.
He can’t help but watch Jude’s performance one evening and he finds himself not only turned on, but also questioning his sexual orientation when he realises he’s physically attracted to his fellow housemate.
Jude is openly gay and confident enough to put on a show twice a week as a way of getting extra funding. He’s not been living in the shared house long but he’s noticed Shawn but has stayed away, thinking he was straight.
Once it becomes clear that isn’t the case, Jude gets Shawn involved in his webcam show to help him get some extra cash to help pay off his overdraft. During their sessions, he also discovers Shawn loves it when he can just let go and leave it all up to Jude.
What follows is a journey of sexual exploration and discovery, of finding yourself and finding the confidence to open up your heart to love, even if it comes in a different form than you might have expected.
There are bumps along the way, Shawn has been conditioned to think being gay is associated with being a sissy, being weak. He hurts Jude unintentionally when he denies there’s anything going on between them. He panics and lashes out at his bisexual and gay housemates and friends and runs away from acknowledging his own bisexuality.
But, because this is a Jay Northcote story, we know there’s going to be a HEA and slowly but surely Shawn starts to put things right, eventually going for broke with a big public gesture which finally puts all doubts aside.
There’s loads of emotion to this book but it never becomes too heavy, instead it’s a joyous romp through early adulthood.
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